Give Me More

I'm not your average homosaphian safe in
Deep down I'm a poet waiting to make these words mate again
Pro creating a new form of lyrical genius
Defining your speech giving birth to its new meanings

The power behind your thoughts
A force of nature feeding off of what you lost
Hoping one day I can make your mind explode
Bleeding you out till your body turns cold

To me its no game
A shame to waste all that poseses your pain
I starve for that touch
A mental motion that consumes what you've gained

Urning for you to claim it
Take advantage of the birth you where named in
Brought forth and changed in
For you are what you eat
And your knowledge taste amazing...

Heat

I'm down but not out
I stay low to avoid the smoke
The air so full of lies that it causes me to choke
Suppressing my anger
My meter reaching danger
Its critical that I change my environment
Hoping God can help fix the life I'm in
Praying the fire will burn the hate before it begins

The UnKnown

Its rooted in me like a tree is to the ground
Like an ear is to sound
Still my words fall deaf to your roots un-nourished giving no life 2 your truths....

I hear it in your speech
The way each word rolls off your tongue
Causing the sensuality in your tones to linger over my flesh and bones

I find it amazing
The way it looms over all your rights and wrongs
Inching its way in like breath into your lungs

I despise the way hate has no room
Allowing you to inhabit my spaces
Filling my head with unlawful cases

These feelings illegal

Locked down to an emotion un- moving

To Love I am losing

Hurried

I'm in no rush
They expect me to move on
Stand strong
Be that women that shows no emotion

I'm in no Rush
To find a new
I'm set in my ways
Content with being confused

I'm in no Rush
To please another
Ease into a lover
Giving my all just to be dropped like all the others

I'm in no Rush
To move on
Hear the stories while he strings me along
Being a puppet of happiness dissolved

I'm in no Rush
To move past single
Looking forward to exploring
Divorcing this misery
Cliche ready to mingle

I'm in no Rush
My trust listed as a homicide
Wishing I never met this addiction
Believing it was only lust

I'm in no Rush
To play this game
Taking my time
Refusing to relive this shame

I'm in no Rush

You Alone

There is comfort in knowing I will always have you
When I look into those voided space I see strength and determination
A harmony unmatched linked in all things from fear and doubt
Sore from the works that have come from us both
Load bearing weights that can only be lifted by God and God alone
With out you I know I would be lost
For I have come to realize that this world has offered nothing but loss
The graffiti of your words forever marked on the walls of the sanctuary that in-cases my heart
Opposites attracted and joined thru my first breaths
Forever moving in unison
My truest friend is you
My mirrored reflection

Rest In Peace

He was the best part of me
The one that kept me going, growing into this shell of a women you see before you
Closer then any other life created by Gods hand
He cradled me, gave me a sense of self worth and believing
In my darkest hours the sound of him breathing would pull me to a plain of existence that was only for me
I dwell alone but with him I stood strong ready to concur and face the world head on
Life was my strong suite when I felt his movement
A love so pure and perfect uninhibited by others and what was considered right and wrong
Without him I am nothing
With him I had it all
Removed from my life force I now am embraced by this solitary confinement, this darkness
He was taken to soon, to early, so fast
Some might say its my fault because of our past
Yet in still to my heart I love you and I always will
Rest In Peace

The Shape of You

So complacent in your sin
A smell so sweet
Seeming to breath life into your soul
Killing you softly while the poison takes control
Standing on a stage exploring greatness into all senses
Touching and tasting the beauty that is useless
Your hairs stand on end as that breeze brushes over your skin
A wind of shame that you can't seem to comprehend
Forming words in a fashion that you feel protect
All the while breaking the ground underneath you slowly sinking to your death
Lies so simple, truths hard to explore
Creating a body of lies into your form.

Revelation...

I love you with my all in all
There is no line I would not cross
No limits or boundaries for what I seen in us
But some where along the way I got lost
I mistook the times we shared as places of growth
Taking lust for just cause
All with no verbal exchange
Assuming you cared by the use of your vein
Each stroke and pleasurable touch
Laying and waiting while you lied to my trust
Yet its all my fault I should have seen it bare
For in each I love you your response was in a sexual flare
My truth is so ruthless
All that's left is my shame
Still I take sex as love and do my truths the same

Paintings...

These words that I speak are doused with color
Painting my thoughts on the minds of others
Creating colors undefined
Spelled with fashion and beauty
A scenery that can only be viewed with a lyrical imagination
Each brush stroke combining with previous burdens
Forming an intensity that would leave any heart screaming
Not from pain or hurt
But from passion and worth
Almost on some level of divinity
Unmatched, pure, and serene
Literature strode across a canvas
Colors uniquely forming my paintings ...

I AM

​I am exposed... yet barely showing myself to the world...I am boldly colorful...my ebony shade is brightly shining through the darkness of my skins tone...I am me...some what humble meek and mild the warmth of my soul radiates thru my eyes giving a lite to this world that may have never been known....almost extinguished by my own hand thru fear of what I am... I am words...kept in script still sealing my lips to keep from telling it all....I am poetry...a bit of truth wrapped in a lie...bits and pieces of a life yet known working on changing...some how rearranging my I am to am I? Am I really exposed? Am I really my skin that wraps me? Am I really my script my poetic speech that creates this spirit that seems all sorts of unique?.... I AM

The Question of "I"

Through out my life time I have come to find

People to be self pleasing

No care for those with out food or clothes

Just the notion that I keep me breathing

And yes no doubt that with out I

I couldn't love my brother

But when do I stop helping me

And help the I with nothing?

I dont have much

But I do have more

Then some who are still breathing

While I'm self pleasing

I no longer apease the I that I once kept feeding

Deep Desires....

The smell of you is so sweet

I long to taste that which you give out

holding on with a firm grip

knowing that one sip will be granting my wish

The nights so late that you keep me up urning

wanting to just touch that pleasured place

The drive, The passion

arousing my senses

Focusing on you and only you

For i know that your ultimate goal is to keep me satisfied

Yet i long for more

Pushing to that place where i know that you will erupt

Filling my entire body with pure ecstasy

Just the thought of you invading my spaces

implores me to find a way just to even reach out to you

wanting nothing more than just the tip

Working my way from the base to the top

Evading sleep so I can keep you at the forefront of my desires

I know soon that these insomniac persecutions

Will lead me down the road to the one that I need

The ond called SUCCESS